Ending It

I can't do this anymore. It's just that simple. I can't lie to him, I can't pretend that I feel differently than I do. I know it will hurt him, but it's killing me, so I'll be selfish and just tell him the truth. If there were a nice way to say "I've lying to you, I don't feel that way about you" I would, but there isn't a nice way. There's just the truth. It hurts, but it's better than being lied to. And there's no easy way to explain things, nothing that can be said to make it easier for him or for me. But my gut and my nerves will kill me if I don't just admit the truth. So I tell him the truth, crush his soul, break his heart, calm my nerves and know that in some small way I'm better than the person who broke my heart. At least I'll have that.