KOL

:sings:

I hate California waiting! Every little thing has gotta be
just right!
Say, why you tryin' to save me? Can't I get back my lonely
life?

God I love that song. I love Kings of Leon. And the Zutons. I just wanted to show I was alive. Not that I really feel alive, but ya know, I'm breathing and everything. So yeah.

Poke

:pokes reader: Hi! :pokes own blubber: Damn PB Joe's. And chocolate chip cookies. Yeah.
Umm...thats all. Have a good day. :makes shifty eyes:

Boo!

Did I scare you? God I hope not. That would be kind of sad. But yeah, I'm still alive.
The reason I haven't been updating is because I've been busy. And my parents took my internet card. Which means I have to "invent" reasons to be on the main computer. It's not that hard, since I have a paper due in chem on the 13th, and I've had other things that need to be typed up in chem and french. But ya know that can only last so long.
I've been invited to have lunch with Monica and her latina crew. I'm scared shitless which is why I'm glad I have Farber on Monday. Talk to him about it. I just know he'll be thrilled. So what if it's almost the end of the year? I'm finally having lunch with people. Of course this means I won't be in the library, so thats another internet outlit taken away. Ah well. I guess it won't be that bad. Monica can do all the talking!
Oh I have fallen for Ricky. Well fallen is quite the correct term. What I mean is I've been become a fangirl. Again. But this is a different person. Brandon still makes me squeal like a stuck pig, but now Ricky also makes me smile like an insane person on drugs. Isn't that great imagery? Anyway, it's rather sad. I'm just glad livejournal is around. :nods:
I went to the high school production of Cat on a Hot Tin Roof. I must say it was absolutely fabulous. Michelle was to die for. Marshall was quite the drunk (despite the fact that he's Morman.) I wrote comments on my program, but really the only thing I have to say is wow. Mucho improvement from Anasazi. Like 1000x times better. Bravo theater department, bravo!!!
Oh what else? Oh! Stu's musical opens this weekend. Which means I won't be able to go. :cries: I want to go, I just can't. Can't miss school. I could go on Saturday. :thinks: Uuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm off to bed my dearies. Have a good week or so!

This is fake DIY

:acts crazy: Who said sanity was the best thing?? Huh????
Fuckity-fuck. I still haven't told mums and dad about the grades. Dr. Farber would be upset, or at least disappointed. I'm personally trying to stay happy. Shits to telling about grades. I want to enjoy my weekend as much as possible before everything goes boom. And let me tell you, everything will go boom. Like an atomic boom, no TNT woosy shit. No this will be the biggest boom yet. Oh yes I do predict. So now I'm going to enjoy my weekend. Or at least try and enjoy it as much as I can.
So update on solos and ensembles. I got a 1 on my solo (which is uber awsome) and I don't know what I got on the quartet. I thnk we did pretty well. I fucked up a lot, but the group in general did really well. Umm yeah. So yay!
Go listen to Fake DIY. Best online radio ever. Yeah. Shower time!

Band

No, no I don't mean school band. Why would I want to write a post about that. :gaugh: No I'm writing about how hyper I am. God I am hyper.
Actually I'm going to now shamelessly plug some really awsome sites:
http://www.kaiser-chief.net
http://www.fan-sites.org/ricky/
http://www.thekillersonline.net/
That's it. I'm going to iron my blouse now. Bye!!

Update

Let this week be over, let this week be over (repeat about 20 more times. )
I had the coolest thing happen to me today. A friend of mine, who had lost touch with (shocker) somehow found me through Livejournal. It was really nice to hear from her actually. She's probably the only person at Stu who has the same sense of humor as me, and was my bestest friend in 8th grade. Plus Avery is just a really cool person. Has more guts than I ever will. :nods: Makes me want to update my Lj, kinda. Yeah maybe.
God I can't wait till Thursday night. Killers on Jay Leno. Makes a girl happy.
I don't know whether I've mentioned this before, I'm sure I haven't, but I go through depressive cylcles. :nods: So lately I've been off and on when it comes to my emotions. Essentially I'm "okay" but teetering towards depressed. The thing is I'm really good at faking it. I've been having these cycles since 7th grade, so I guess I've gotten good at it. Anyway, thats part of the reason I haven't been updating a lot. It's hard for me to articulate my emotions when I'm depressed and since most of this quarter I have been depressed, thats basically 2 months of not really being able to update a lot. I'm sorry for that, because I have a lot of stuff I want to say, I just don't know how to.
Sorry for this heavy stuff. I just thought you might like to know. Cuz I know I have a million readers. Hahahahaha. Ah the good times.
Wish me luck on Saturday at 3:56 pm (eastern daylight savings time) and 2:12pm. I'm doing the Solos and Ensembles thing at those times, and the 3rd movement needs all the luck it can get. So wish especially hard at 3:56, cuz thats when my quartet is performing and thats when the 3rd movement might mess everything up. I'm confident about my solo, but the ensemble needs luck, a lot.
So yeah. Thats it.

Music is suppose to be a release. Sure it started out religiously, but it eventually became something to entertain the masses. To me music is about love and heartache or completely random subjects like beer and animals. Music says something about who was listening to it, or who is listening to it. Music is suppose to speak to the people, lift them out their dreary lives. It's not that I don't appreciate protest songs, or the punk rock movement, it's just thats not what music is suppose to be. Somewhere in the 60's music got twisted around and become this political machine, in some cases at least. Instead of getting people away from the horrors they were seeing on TV, a lot of popular was a reminder of just how sucky the world was. After that the punksters started saying the same thing. Life sucks and then you die. Of course there has always been music that is about love, heartache and random shit. But just how much of that has survived, and not been ridiculed? Not much, not much at all. I mean disco is a perfect example. Supposedly all disco is crap. I think not! Disco is a release, and to me thats the point of music.
I suppose I could never be a punk-rocker. I'm more of pop-rock/rock person. I just don't want to be constantly reminded of how sucky life is. The only exception I can think of are The Kinks, but they appeal more to my cynical side than my depressive side. Music for me is an escape from deadlines, tests, practice, and my lack-there-of, of a social life. Why then would I want to listen to Green Day bitch and moan about the current state of the populous? Sure I understand the need for their kind of music, but I don't have to listen to it right? Someone (in the case of Green Day lots of people) will listen to them and appreciate what they have to say. I own American Idiot. I've listened to it a couple of times, I have some favorites. But now I won't listen to it all the way through. I would rather just listen to the couple of songs that really don't say anything political, that are about (you fill in the blank, I believe in you.)
Of course when I say heartache and I don't mean bitching. Because honestly hearing another pretty boy complaining about his recent break up from the "love of my life" makes me sick. No when I think of heartbreak and heartache I think of the Motown hits from the early 60's, R&B greats, that sort of thing. Mmm Motown.
Anyway, I think I've considerably expanded my view on music. Hell I'm listening to Hem right now. Damn fine. Just remember kids: Music is a release, an escape. Kinda like trashy TV, but better.